Homesick?

I started having the feeling that I'm ready to go home. Not because I hate it here. Not because I can't hack it. It's the opposite, I think. I think I want ot go home so I can get on with tying up my loose ends (so to speak) in the US so I can move to Paris. OK, maybe there's a bit of homesickness in there somewhere too. I do miss being able to call people at will. The cost and the 6-hour time difference makes that a bit hard to do. I haven't seen my family since December, but them again, I hadn't seen them a year before the last time I saw them. So that can't be completely it.

I think a part of it is loneliness. When you're in a place for only a short time, it's hard to get to know people well. Sure you make fast friends when you're in a challenging situation, but do you really have time to get to know people? I wish I had more time to develop the relationships that I'm forming. I think I've become more social since I've been here. ;)

I think I also want to go home because I feel this new sense of purpose. Like, I'm going to get my life together (sorta like when Sabrina comes home from a year in Paris, she's a new person). I just feel like I've grown up so much here. I'm so proud of myself for doing this.

Still, another reason for wanting to go home is, I'm in Geneva. Geneva is a nice city, but after a few weeks, you feel very comfortable there. I guess that means, there isn't that much to do after a point. It's a lovely city for families and for people who are not interested in the big city life. But I'm a city girl at heart with dreams to conquer the City of Lights and the Big Apple, so I need a glamorous city with glamorous people. Don't get me wrong--Geneva is very moneyed. There is a lot of wealth here. I love my daily eye candy of watching business men in suits on their way to work. They are so GQ. But, I think the divide is also wide here, so when you don't have a regular source of income, you feel trapped here, like you can't enjoy yourself. That being said, if I got a job to come back here, sure I'd take it. Geneva is only a few hours from Paris by train lol. And the Easy Jet flies out of the airport.

I'm still trying to think about how I'm going to parlay my degree into a job in Paris. But if there's one principle I operate on, it's faith. I know with a little faith, prayer, belief and luck, I can accomplish anything I set my mind to.